Mamavation – The First 12 Days

It has been a good but trying 12 days so far. I have lost over 12 pounds from the time that I first applied to Mamavation. I am excited. I feel better (for the most part) My watch and ring are a little loose. Woo hoo!

I am also thrilled for Alyssa who is doing very well. I like having two moms in Mamavation. It doesn't at all feel like a competition but it feels as if we are working together. I get her struggles. I am sure that she gets mine.

I have been working hard to get the nutrition plan down but I still have to refer to it everyday. My next step is to change more of my family dynamic. It seems that I only see the rest of my family around food. We meet for dinner. We go out for birthdays. Aren't other families like this? I am not sure what else to do with my extended family. I will have to think on that one. Sad isn't it?

I am feeling pretty down today and I am thinking that it is because the change in the weather. Not exactly sure. Maybe S.A.D. I will have to make certain that I take my depression medication at the same time on a daily basis and not skip a day (I tend to forget at least once or twice a week).

I work from home and my husband works long hours. Very often the only adult interaction that I have during the day is the wave to the carpool lady or with the people on the tv. It is true! Stand outside my house one day and you may here me yelling at the television or rather the people on it.

My goal for the next week is to get to the gym. We joined the Y over two years ago and I have not worked out there once. If I can lay it all out there for you guys, I should be able to do it to go to the gym. They even have FREE childcare. I think that just the act of getting out of the house will make me feel a little better.

Exercise was a total struggle today because of my attitude. I know that it's me. I did it but I wasn't really that into it. I did not work as hard as I could have.

I guess what I am most annoyed about is that I should have told you guys today. I am horrible about asking for help. It is so easy just to slide back under the covers and not see the outside world.

I should have jumped on Twitter and said the words: “I NEED HELP. I need some love today. Feeling down.” But I didn't do that. This won't happen again.

Tomorrow is another day and I am determined to wake up with a better attitude. Or at least drink a ton of caffeine.

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