This has been a tough week for me. Although I have lost four pounds, I have been sick for almost five days straight. So go me but darn I was sure not moving around...
Mamavation – Take 2
Mamavation “is a social media experiment and weight loss campaign created to change lives one mom at a time. Bookieboo Moms have organized as a team to impact one mom’s life and help her create an everlasting healthy lifestyle.”
One of the reasons that I think Mamavation can work is because many of these women have been where I am today. They have dealt with weight issues, self esteem issues and more. Who better to motivate me than women who have done this themselves?
I am so busy taking care of everyone else that I often forget about myself in the process. I know that as a mother, this is just what happens. Long ago, the manicures and pedicures went by the wayside. Soon followed the highlights. Then the haircuts. The clothes.
The weight kept going up.
Everything that defined who I was before I had children is gone. I need to take my old self back and find a way to become a person comfortable in her own skin again. I have to. I want to.
I have to feel like I am living again rather than waiting for my life to begin ‘once I lose weight.’
I want to take pictures with children (and want to) so that when they look back at the memories of their childhood, all of the pictures have two parents.
I want to change my lifestyle and not be this lifelong dieter.
I want to stop making my husband miserable because I am so hung up on my weight.
I have to be able to go outside of the house and not feel that every single person is looking at me because I am fat.
I want to have self confidence again (believe it or not, I used to be a motivational speaker and I have spoken in front of more than 5,000 people, many times). I can barely speak to a few people right now.
I want to feel like a winner and not just that weight loss is something that I cannot conquer.
I want to do this for myself. I have to do this for myself.
I have to do this for my family. I want to do this for my family.
Finally, I want to motivate others by chronicling my mamavation experiment. I think that sharing my progress and every step that I take towards a healthy lifestyle can truly motivate others to do the same.
As I put the finishing touches on the video, I am hoping that I will be the chosen one for the Mamavation experiment. But I have to get people to vote for my video and the most popular one wins. This is pretty hard for a fat chick to go through. A popularity contest. But I am optimistic.
Mamavation could be the turning point in my life.